Friday, 27 December 2013

20 min run today

I have been craving running lately. This past weekend I was walking around the house with just socks and my feet have been fine! I decided I would try to go for a run on the treadmill today.  I was nervous!!
My hamstrings were tight, my arches a little bit sore, and my cardio was not great (under statement) but I ran for 20 minutes and covered just over 3 km. That was a good start.
I am curious to see how my feet feel as the day goes on today and tomorrow.

Wednesday, 4 December 2013

The 80/20 rule

I know the 80/20 rule.  Balance and healthy lifestyle is maintained if you do/eat what is right 80% of the time with allowing yourself to 'fall off the wagon' once in awhile.  Keeping this balance rule in mind, life continues and you don't become a fanatic in anyway.
I know this.
So, I have to question myself WHY do I feel so GUILTY when I dip into my 20% reserve and eat a modest portion of salt and vinegar chips? A small portion of French fries?  2 cookies?  Yes, even a full bagel.

I feel frustrated that as I am working hard at the gym, and the progress is there but not in relation to the hard work I am putting in.  Therefore when I eat junk food I say to myself "80/20 rule-- yes BUT you SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER".  Where does this self imposed guilt come from??

I was a musician for more years than I have not been.  When you are a flautist in an orchestra, you must be perfect because if you are not, there is no hiding.  Everyone knows that you messed up.  You did not pull your weight (pardon the pun), you did not work hard enough to perfect your part. You let everyone down and embarrassed yourself as well.
Good job...
How many times did I hear from teachers and conductors that "a chain is as strong as it's weakest link"? 

Is this why I am harder on myself than in other areas of my life?  I love being a homemaker but I don't NEED to find perfection there.  The ironing can stay waiting for me for a week.  I can walk past a pile of papers waiting to be filed.  But regarding myself, I must not waiver from the sense of perfection that I have placed on how I want to look in my favorite pants.

Ok, so now I have had this great, aha moment.  Now what do I do with it?
Give myself a break and realize that the stress related to being in the spotlight on stage is over and really, no one will notice if I continue to be healthy using the 80/20 rule.
That is a start.  I also have to remember that right now, I DO look great and not to worry so much about NOT looking great.  I don't need to live with self imposed pressure.  That's just a waste of energy and a good dose of guilt that I could be saving for the kids!  Like for homework or practicing or writing thank you cards or not making their beds, or....


Monday, 21 October 2013

Oct 21, the day after

Yesterday mom and I walked the 5 km route at the ScotiaBank Toronto Waterfront marathon.  We walked as part of the Sheena's Place Team.

It was a really nice walk.  Mom and I power walked it together.  We finished it in 44 min.  Mom came in 5th place on her age category.  If she hadn't dropped her sunglasses, she would have placed 4th. Even by walking, I landed in the top 3rd.  Funny.

It was sad picking up our packages but it was a fun walk.


I won't lie, there have been times I have felt like forgetting about running but then I am not one to give up so easily.  I think of Diana Nyad, Reid Coolsaet, Cory Freedman, all those who have been injured and have kept going. Why should I be so sucky?  If they could get through much worse why not me?

Time to fix my foot.

Friday, 27 September 2013

Went for a bike ride

Okay, so yesterday I was crying off and on because I have decided that I cannot run the marathon.  I decided not to be stressed and sad and to start enjoying my life and enjoy this weather .  So this morning I went for a bike ride instead!  I did the Cedarville route. The sky was so blue and the grass so green.  It was beautiful.
On the Beltline I bumped into Glynis running 32 km.   I am so proud of her and so happy that she's able to do this.  
Truth be told I wasn't jealous.
I'm glad that wasn't me!
I rode slowly beside her for little while, chatting and then I took off nice and fast.  I thought my MapMyRide was working but it wasn't on but that was okay too. I was able to go out and enjoy the good weather and then come home.  

I think I'm going to be okay.  



Thursday, 26 September 2013

5 km walk

Foot is still hurting all the time.  I am spending too much time worrying and wasting this beautiful fall weather.
I'm going to go for a bike ride tomorrow and start enjoying life again.

Just not sure

I've been told that I will be able to run the marathon but I just don't see it.  Actually I just don't feel it.
I went out for an 8 km run yesterday and my foot was a bit achy but I still was able to do it.  Afterwards though I could very much feel the sprain of my foot.  
As I write this I'm soaking my foot in the contrast bath of ice cold water and really hot water.
Part of me really wants to run the whole marathon and really enjoy the day.  What a great accomplishment to run my second marathon, the whole 42 km.  But on the other hand it is kind of crazy when I'm dealing with foot pain after only 8 km.  Even though the marathon is four weeks away this just isn't feeling good.  I am not in a comfortable happy place right now.  

I keep thinking I should walk the 5K with my mom.

Tuesday, 17 September 2013

Music Playlist

I definitely have my mojo-vation back.  I have been working on my playlist and love "Can't Stop Me Now" by Queen.  I can just see myself struggling at some point laughing and singing "Don't stop me now I'm having such a good time, I'm having a ball.  Dont stop me now".  Mind over matter! 

I also love P!nk:  Are We All We Are and Where Did The Beat Go.

Florence and the Machine: Dog Days Are Over (It is a good reminder to "run fast for your mother run fast for your father, run for your children")
Bon Jovi:  Just Older (yup)
Enrique Iglesias and Pitbull: I like how it feels (I hope so)

Now I'm getting excited again for the marathon....  :)

Monday, 16 September 2013

Slowly coming back!

I had a good one hour excruciating painful massage last week where Peter stripped the fascia from my foot.  Fun!!  It felt like he was going to pull off my toes!  I don't swear much but there I was swearing as I was laughing through the pain.  At the end of it all though... I felt GREAT!
I continued to ice, heat, contrast bath, use a golf ball and Voltarin, and ran a good 10k today.

Sam and I soaking in a contrast bath up at the cottage.

Peter's diagnosis of my feet was that "they were tired".  So, they've had a nice month rest so now WAKE UP.  How could all the above NOT wake them up?

Still questioning if I can/should run the marathon or walk with my mom.

This is all so silly.....

Monday, 19 August 2013

Foot

Stupid marathon training (this would not have happened if I was going for another 1/2).
Stupid 29 km
Stupid heel pain 
Mad I can't run up at the cottage
Mad I need an ice pack and tape to not feel pain (yes that's a gin and tonic in the background as well).


I want to run to burn off this attitude! Grrrrr....

Not happy

Trying to tap into my Vivian Leigh... Tomorrow is another day.


Saturday, 17 August 2013

29 km done (with some whining)

I feel like I was whining too much today.  I didn't  mean to and I apologize.  I went for a 29 km run today with Glynis.  I was totally psyched to go.  I watched what I ate and drank last night.  I was excited to accomplish this next milestone but from the start, my hamstrings were tight, my toes were achy and I felt tired.  It was only around 20 km that I lightened up and enjoyed the fact I was running home!  

I really tried to enjoy going out for a 3 hr run.  Enjoy the sunshine, the blue sky, the fresh air but I felt the difficulty in every kilometre today.

5 km left and I wanted to run into traffic, get hit by a truck just so I could lie down.  Pathetic!!!!

1 km left and I hurt a muscle in my arch of my left foot which made me have to walk home.  Grrrrrrr.  By the way, it still is really sore.  Icing it right now and will tape it tomorrow if I need to.

Physically a hard, blah, run but still so happy that I did it and that Glynis is still my friend.




Monday, 12 August 2013

Hill work

Ran 8 hills Monday and it felt good.
5 with Baci, ran him home, continued on for 3 more.

I pictured the hill by the Boulevard Club by the waterfront.  I visualized people around me walking up the hill and me running strong!

Today, my body is saying "what the heck did you do to me yesterday???".
Very glad to be sipping a G&T right now. Gotta love summer!!!

19 km

I ran a pretty good 19 km on Friday.  My average pace was a bit slow, but it really doesn't matter.  I don't think.

I started out with 4 km with Baci then dropped him off at home and continued on.  It was a bit hard doing Cedarvale backwards, as it often is, but fun reminiscing going tobogganing in the winter.  


I then went west along the belt line until it ended, to Caledonia Road.


I went back East along the belt line to continue home. I saw this mural I've never seen before.  Cool...


I was surprised how long it took to quicken my average speed.  Baci and backwards Cedarvale slowed me down but along the belt line I felt strong and fast.  Also great was that I didn't misjudge the distance and I was spot on!  The worst is having to run around the block a bunch of times when you thought you were done.
Oh yah, I also dealt with 3 phone calls.
During the marathon I VOW to turn off my phone but during my training I will keep it on.

Friday, 12 July 2013

What a day!

Here has been my day today:

Cleaning lady called in sick today (ug)
Drove 3 kids to 2 different activities and got everyone where they need on time (yay)
Went for a 23 km run (yay)
Got back to the car 10 min later than expected (ug)
So arrived 10 min late to pick up daughter (ug, sorry)
Which made her 10 min late for friend's house (sorry again)
But she got the GO bus on time for Wonderland (phew, yay!)
Got to Son's hockey game: they won (yay)
But after son saw me wanted to come home and he couldn't (ug)
Went to 2 drycleaner drop offs but clothes cannot be ready for tomorrow morning (sorry)
Husband is picking up the de-humidifier (yay) so now I have one hour to stretch (yay), shower (Yay),  and vaccuum the house (yay!!) before seeing daughter's art show (YAY).



So great finding a water park in the middle of a 23 km run!!!

We have spent quite a few kms in Mount Pleasant Cemetery.  It is shady and quite beautiful.  I am keeping an eye out for Kim Bliss (friend from North Toronto CI who died in a car accident right after HS).  We have been noticing many Jewish stones which I find interesting.  I like how Glynis said that we spend our days side by side, together so why not?  Good point.
We also saw Prime Minister William Lyon Mackenzie King who had a very modest stone which was covered in coins.  I thought that interesting as in Jewish tradition, we put stones to show we had visited.  I also thought being a PM of Canada, there would be more pomp and circumstance, but hey, we are Canadian.

I am really enjoying our time there.

Today we also went exploring the Belt Line all the way until it ends past Dufferin.  We usually stop near the Allen.  Got a bit lost looking for it.  Everyone we asked said that they were new to Toronto.  Finally found it on our own.

Having fun making new running memories and exploring the city a bit.

Wednesday, 10 July 2013

Good attitude

Glynis and I ran 8 km this morning in the humidity.  I had to stop every 2 km or so to catch my breath but Glynis was fine.  We joked imagining October 20 being in the middle of an Indian summer.  I told Glynis I could see her flying through it at Boston marathon qualifying speed, going home, stretching, having a shower and a snack, then coming back to the finish line yelling 'here comes Jennifer around the bend!'

I could see myself panting and finishing it in 5 1/2+ hours but never once did I see myself not crossing the finish line.  Not finishing didn't even enter my mind.

It's going to happen, easily or not.  I will complete it (but hopefully in 4 hrs).

:)

Friday, 5 July 2013

Mind over matter?

Glynis and I went out for our long run today.  We wanted to run 17-20 km.  We ended up running 19.  I would say partly due to time we did not run 20 but truth is I don't know if I could have.

We had a great run in the beginning.  Running in the rain was fine.  Cool and refreshing actually.  No big deal. We ran through Mount Pleasant Cemetery, stopping only now and then to look at a cool grave (PM Mackenzie King with little fan fare but a lot of coins on his tomb), fix a shoe, have a drink of gaterade.  I got totally lost.  I thought we were going to come up near Mt.Pleasant or Bayview but we had done a complete circle and came out back on Yonge! I felt so disoriented!  It didn't matter though.  We didn't really have a route to follow and it was so pretty and well canopied.

 I felt fine throughout.

At around 13 km, I thought about my right hamstring, just checking in, and that is when it started to really hurt.  What if I hadn't thought about it?  Would I have noticed the ache?  I tried to think about how my other hamstring felt, to try to change my focus.  Barely worked.

Since Glynis ran to pick me up, I ran her home then came back to my home.  I really wanted my watch to be the same as Glynis's so I ran around the block 1 1/2 times until it said 19 km.  My right hamstring was really starting to seize up though.  Man, I'm stubborn, or is it called dedicated?

Being a few minutes late (I was running/power walking the last bit), I jumped in the car, drove to pick up daughter #1 from school.  Stretched for a few minutes at the gas station as I was pumping $100.00 into my car (seriously $100 !!) then drove her to her friend's house.  Jumped back into the car (with a protein bar) and raced to my son's hockey game.  Came home and had a shower and some real food.

Finished the laundry, changed bed sheets, then went and saw daughter #2's art show at her camp.

After camp, helped daughter #2 re-fold all her t-shirts which were thrown in her drawers, picked up daughter #1 at her friend's house, continued with laundry and helped WONDERFUL husband who made dinner for everyone.

I feel tired, a bit sore, but accomplished.
That's what being dedicated feels like.

:)

Saturday, 29 June 2013

Hamstring soreness

Mom and Dad needed me to check something in their house so instead of driving there, I ran the 5 km up (literally uphill) and back home (down hill).  10 km in 57 min.  My hamstrings were tight and sore the whole time.
Blah.

Woke up today with fever, aches and pains.  Maybe that was why my hamstrings were so sore?

Wednesday, 19 June 2013

5 km drag

I thought I would try to run my Yonge Street route as fast as I could and take Baci for a good quality run at the same time.

We started out strong, running on average 4:40 then he got tired!  I dragged him for most of the run.  I felt like the strong woman in a truck pulling competition.  Here I was trying to run fast dragging 80 ish pounds of tired, panting, dog.





We finished our 5 km run in 30 min but to tell the truth, I don't think that is correct.  We were running fast (at least at the beginning).  There have been times when my BRF and I have set our GPS gadgets and have come up with different stats.  I am still trying to figure that out.

Either way, we went for a good run this morning.

Long run scheduled for tomorrow (17 km??)

Wednesday, 12 June 2013

Thinking of Michael Phelps


That was a hard 8 km run this morning.  I ran with Baci around Cedervale.  Started with listening to a Podcast but realize pretty early on that I needed music.  My legs felt slow and heavy today.  Baci stopping constantly to sniff or pee did not help matters.

At about 2 km I felt that I needed to pee. I was slightly envious that Baci could pee everywhere and anywhere as I felt the pressure building in my bladder.  Now my legs felt heavy as did my torso.

I started to envision ducking into the thick brush to relieve myself but then worried about school children (outside playing) seeing me.  I was running so slowly, way slower than my 5'40.  I was averaging 6'54.  Crazy!!

I remember Michael Phelps sometimes trained in the pitch dark in case he was to lose a contact in competition.  I saw this as a test of my strength of endurance and tried to make it a good learning experience.

I made a mind shift around 5 km to just relax and enjoy being outside and forget my pace, the time, or my discomfort. 

The sky was so blue, leaves so green.  I love this time of year.  I also saw a large yellow butterfly in the park.

Near home the port-a-potties started taunting me:



I would not stop!!!  Too close to home!!!

Got home finally and had my well deserved pee!

Thursday, 6 June 2013

Why I love speed work

Speed work is hard but it's one of those things where you can see instant results.  I recently heard on The Mother Runner podcast  (http://anothermotherrunner.com/category/amr-radio-show/  btw, you can download for free via itunes) a great idea: that you can't expect to run faster if you don't train faster.  It's like wanting to lose the last 10 lbs without doing anything different to your diet.  Nothing's going to change if you don't do the work.

There have been times when I've gone for a run and I felt like I was running really fast but then I checked my watch at the end and my average speed was the same as always.  I hate that.  I go on emotional instant roller coaster of being really happy to really disappointed/confused.

Speed work changes all that in only half an hour once a week.

My comfort pace is around 5.40/km.  Today my BRF (best running friend) and I ran laps around the local park.  Our comfort pace was around 5.40 and the speed laps were between 4.10 and 4.20.  Fast enough that we couldn't talk but not so fast that we wanted to throw up (almost but not quite).  We ran home at 5.40 and it felt so slow!

Btw... I did not take Baci this time and I DID make it all around the track without stopping (see May 14th post). So... either I am faster and stronger than I was a few weeks ago OR Baci made it too difficult to concentrate on the task at hand!

If it's true that muscle has memory please let it remember today!



Thursday, 30 May 2013

Toronto Women's Half Marathon Recap

I nailed it!  1:58  phew!!!!  I really had hoped for a sub 2:00 hour finish and I got it (but not without a struggle).



Leading into the 1/2, I was injury free and not worried about any particular body part giving me grief.  I haven't felt that freedom from worry for a long time.  Larry drove me to the start (which I was very grateful for as I was running late) and asked why I looked nervous.  He was right that I had run this distance before, but I had high hopes that I would clear 2:00 hrs and you never know what could go wrong or how your body would behave THIS time.

As I was heading to the start, I met up with my neighbour, Susan, who has multiple marathons under her belt, including Boston.  She is a fast runner.  She told me that she had not trained for this 1/2 and had just signed up on Friday.  Unlike me who has been training and hoping and watching the weather forecast and worrying and and and...
We decided to at least start out together.

Susan helped me take off strong but not too fast.  Unfortunately, she lost me at the first killer hill.  I never caught up to her but each time there was a round about, I saw that we were never too far apart.  I liked the motivation of a) try to catch up to Susan and b) don't let Susan see me walk.




Once we were separated, I put in my ear plugs and got my music going.  This was a bit tricky as I did not want to slow down or lose my pace while doing so.  Throughout the run, I would feel myself slowing down and I had to remind myself this was not a TRAINING run but a road RACE and I had to pick it up if I wanted to clear 2:00 hrs.  Every so often I would tell myself "you want to tell Jennifer, May, Ellen, Glynis... that I got under 2:00hrs.  You know you can do this.  They know you can do this."  Thanks girls for being in my head!

Around 10-12 km my right piriformis started to ache and at the same time my left IT band started to get tight.  That was an unwelcome and worrisome surprise.  Did not like that.  Immediate memories of my sore IT band from my marathon came to mind (had to finish with a Terry Fox like run) as did my sore piriformis from a few years ago.  Grrrr.




Somehow I ran through it and neither really amounted to more pain.  Phew!!!!!




I tried to focus on my music, and all the great smiles out there on the route.  The setting was also beautiful (Sunnybrook Park).

It was really fun seeing the camaraderie of women passing each other in opposite directions high 5ing each other or recognizing a familiar face and waving. It was also nice seeing Carly's friend handing out water.  A familiar face is always a welcome spirit lifter.




At 15 km the volunteers handed out Eload Gels.  Very tasty but I have not yet mastered ingesting the gels without getting the sticky gel all over my fingers and lips.  I really liked the taste and knew I needed the jolt from the gel so there I am trying to lick my sticky salty sweating fingers to get all of the e-load gel that I could, all the while running.  Not a pretty sight!  I finally got some water from the water station and tried to wash my hands a bit (all the while trying to keep up my pace and not slow down!)  We women make great multi-taskers!!!



At the 18 km mark there was a killer/nasty hill at Don Mills south of Eglinton which I had not expected.  I could not make it up the hill without power walking.  I was sure that I had lost my 2:00 as my pace was no where near 5'40.  I had given up in my head but told myself, well, let's see how close you will get.




 After the killer hill, it was pretty straight forward to the finish line.  I pushed through happy to see the end and as I crossed the finish line, turned off my watch and music/GPS app and SMILED!  Made it in 1:58 and maintained my time that has been similar over the past 5 years!




Now to recover and then keep going.  After all, http://www.torontowaterfrontmarathon.com/en/index.htm
is in 142 days (but who's counting?)




Wednesday, 29 May 2013

Recovery Run

After Sunday's run I would say my most painful parts have been my two blistered, black and blue toes on both my feet and bad chafing from my panty line (nice..).


I worked hard during the half marathon so of course my muscles are a little stiff but not over-the-top sore.  I've also been feeling quite tired.

Today is Wednesday and I had to make a decision if I was going to go to yoga class or go for an easy run but I had to start doing something.  As Larry says I have to "keep the dream alive".

I'm still feeling a bit lazy from Sunday so decided not to go to a formal yoga class but to put on my running shoes one more time and go for an easy 5K run around the Casa Loma route which is rather flat.  (As I am proof reading this, it looks funny to read that I feeling lazy so opt for a run rather than yoga). I'm so glad I ran because even though I had a few aches and pains throughout the run I'm feeling fit and really happy.  Not to minimize the word 'happy' but it's more than that: content, at peace, all round strong.

I'm really looking forward to seeing how far I can take this level of fitness and if I can make it to the full marathon once again, October 20.


Scotiabank Toronto Waterfront Marathon, Half Marathon, 5k | October 20, 2013







Half marathon post race analysis

Coming soon!
This I can tell you... My necklace is BEAUTIFUL (and well earned!)







Monday, 20 May 2013

5 km at race pace


Baci and I ran our Casa Loma route this morning which is a pretty flat 5 km route. It was tricky because it often takes 15 min to really loosen up and get into a comfortable pace.  We pushed through and made it in 29.31 which was a 5' 54 pace.  To clear 2:00 next week I need to run a minimum of 5'40.



I was really pulling Baci at around 4 km, so I think that I will be able to run faster when I am not dragging a tired, hot drooly dog.  I will also be able to pull up my speed when I have longer to run than 5 km.

Ok, last excuse:  Last night's dinner consisted of wine (Caymus--yum) and pistachios.  



:)

Friday, 17 May 2013

Great run today with May Allison

First of all, I am loving my new Nike watch!  It syncs so much faster than my old Garmin Forerunner and the buttons are easy to use to access the information that I want.  I love new gadgets!


Today I ran with May Allison (1996 Atlanta Olympics).  She is a friend of our family but the first time for me to run with her.  I don't know how she felt, but I loved it!  We went 12.20 km in 1:09 at an average 5:40 speed.  The route was great as it had both city streets as well as ravine parts.  We chatted the whole way and I didn't need to stop and walk, even for the hills.  She made me feel/realize that I can run faster than I have been and that I am stronger than I think I am.  :)
We also got a whistle (some guys in a truck) running up a nasty hill.  Made both us smile.  If only they knew how old we are, both having 3 kids etc...

Two pieces of advice she gave me: 1) get faster/lighter shoes for racing and 2) do more hill work to increase overall fitness.

I would love to run with her again.  Hope she will be happy to run with me again too.


Tuesday, 14 May 2013

"Pain is weakness leaving the body." Anonymous

If you want change, you have to be the change.  I want to run faster which means that I have to do the work so that my body is willing and ready to be faster.  It would be lovely to wake up on race day and run 2:00 for the Half but unfortunately, I cannot just will it to happen.

Yesterday I went running in the park with Baci and my running friend to work on speed training.  We ran to the park and alternated laps with jogging and sprinting.  The Kelly Clarkson song 'What doesn't kill you makes you stronger' kept looping in my mind!  

I couldn't get around the whole park sprinting without taking one (or more) short break.  I have a summer goal!

Running 5 km with alternate fast laps was much harder than running 12 km at an easy pace.  So glad that to be successful in increasing your speed, you only have to run intervals once a week.

Both of us were exhausted for the rest of the afternoon
Baci 'smiling' after our run



Monday, 13 May 2013

Great quote



I run because it's so symbolic of life. You have to drive yourself to overcome the obstacles. You might feel that you can't. But then you find your inner strength, and realize you're capable of so much more than you thought.

Arthur Blank, co-founder of The Home Depot 

I receive this email every morning from Runners World www.runnersworld.com.  The Daily Kick In The Butt are always running quotes.  I especially liked this one.

When I decided to run the Goodlife Toronto Marathon 5 years ago, I was not running enough to even make it onto a running chart to help with scheduling/planning to run a marathon.  I had to create a chart just so that I could get on the training chart.  I accomplished my goal and ran the whole 42 km.  I would never have guessed that I had it in me.  The dedication, the planning, the work, and the success was all mine (of course with a great team of family and friends helping me).  What else can I do that I don't know that I can?


Monday, 6 May 2013

Strong 9 km run today but ending in calf pain.

Had a great run this morning with Glynis through Cedervale. 9 km? I forgot to press the Start button on my watch until at least 1 km in- oops :) We went the easier way (counter-clockwise) and it felt faster than last week. Still averaging around 5:50 per km though. Thought it would have been faster. It was a nice strong run and I felt proud that I powered up the last hill near Heath!
When I got home though my right calf was sooo sore. I iced on and off for half hour and took some Ibuprofen.
I hate aches and pains. I hope the pain goes away QUICKLY. I get so nervous about having injuries. This better not be 'an injury'. I really hope it is just a sore muscle from today only.

I must remain calm and positive...breathe...

Good thing I have great massage therapists in my contact list if I need them.  :)
Chris from Summerhill Health and Peter, Toronto Physiotherapy, used to work on the Olympic Team and Thinking about calling Peter is NOT a positive, calming thought though. I must slow down my thinking.

Just Breathe.....

Time to have some lunch, do some housework, walk the dog and mail a letter.

3 hrs later... Calf is still feeling too tight but no longer sore.  Next few days I will ice, stretch and take it easy.

Friday, 3 May 2013

Priorities, a new running friend, and a great long run

I have not had a chance to run all week and truth be told as much as it is important for my mental and physical health,  I was doing more important things.  Two friends have cancer and I was visiting them.  Running is so important in my life, as I have written so many times but witnessing people and families struggle with illness really helps tune in to what is important in life.  The saying 'Don't sweat the small stuff' sounds cliche, but cannot be more true.  I let my kids stay up a bit later this week, did not engage in petty arguments, and made a cake from scratch at 8:00 pm because my 8 year old wanted to bake (seriously, he started to cry when I pulled out a Duncan Hines box mix).

I wish all the strength to my friends and will continue to support and run errands and be there all that I can.

Today I set out to run 18-20 km.  Last week my long run was 17 km and I wanted to do more than that.  After I took my children to school, I saw a mom I recognized from the schoolyard and she was wearing her running clothes too.  I have seen her all year but did not know her name.  After chatting for a moment, we introduced ourselves and decided to run together this morning.  I ran 5 km first with Baci (which would give her time to drive home and get ready) then I would run up and meet her.  She does not live far from me.  Perfect!!  I can't tell you how excited I was at the prospect of having a human running buddy.

I think we run about the same pace which is a bonus.  A bit hard to tell as when I met up with her, I had already run 6 km and was feeling quite sluggish today.  We kept running and chatting and running and chatting and by the time I got home, I had run 21 km!!   I feel like Sam coming home and saying "Mom, I made a new friend at school today!"

It is also great knowing that on a sluggish day, I can run a half marathon in 2:15.  Great for the memory banks. I am really happy with that.  I can't help but think with the energy of a race day and knowing that I want to push myself, I wonder if I can run a sub 2:00 run on May 26th.  Very exciting thought but only time will tell.

My new running friend and I are planning on running again next week but definitely a shorter run.
Feeling mellow (tired and content) right now.  I think it is time for a cup of tea.

Tuesday, 23 April 2013

I needed this day.

Today was a perfect spring day. The sky was bright blue and the sun was shining. I ran my regular 5 km with Baci but slower than usual hoping that I would do between 15 and 18 km today.

I felt strong and ran easily. No aches or pains and most importantly, I ran happy. I really felt back to myself again: loving running and listening to music.  I felt light on my feet and enjoyed the run.

I feel that I have shaken off the shock and sadness of last week's attack.
Maybe because the two men were caught.
Maybe because I recognize that the bombings did not personally attack me.
Maybe because other people closer to home need my focus.
Maybe I just needed time.

Whatever the reason, I'm in a good head space today. I ran 17 km and I feel good.
I am where I am supposed to be, doing what I am supposed to be doing.

Tuesday, 16 April 2013

Not in the mood for a parade

Many people on Facebook and Twitter posted that they were going to go for a run today in solidarity for those who were injured or killed in the Boston Marathon bombings yesterday.  As I am a runner and part of the running community,with a heavy heart and so many conflicting thoughts,  I decided to don my runners and go on the treadmill for 5 km.  At first it felt right, I was joining my community is their healing thoughts and ran knowing that we runners will not be silenced or stopped.  Then it felt very wrong.  Shouldn't we not run today in honor of those who can no longer run?


I like running in road races.  Signing up for one forces me to exercise and keep up my discipline and motivation to stay healthy and fit. By staying driven, I stay sane and calm as well.  I feel that I am a better parent and wife.  I have more tolerance and less frustration of the little things that usually push my buttons.

I like races because I know that I am a strong runner and I like to see how I compare to other women my age (not only am I driven, I admit I am also somewhat competitive).

I like races because even though each year I get older, I am staying just as fast, so it keeps me feeling young.    Though post race recuperation time and injury occurrence do betray my true age.

I like road races because I feel like I am in a parade.  There are spectators clapping and waving to you.  You wave back to strangers.  There is music, smiles, camaraderie.  There are bands and posters.  And at the end, you get a medal!  There are photos and post race commentaries with other runners.

All of this is for me.  For my health, my sanity, my self-esteem.  Sure it is also good role modeling for my family but in essence I run for me.

I can't imagine doing all this for selfish gains, having a bomb go off, lose my leg or worse my life, have my child killed or maimed and have my running affect the rest of my family in such a horrendous way.  I know it would not be my fault, but I can imagine feeling that I had put my family in danger because I wanted to have the bragging rights of running in a road race.

I am signed up for the Toronto Women's Half Marathon at the end of May.  Right now though, I am not in a mood for a parade.

That is how I feel today.  I don't know how I will feel tomorrow.

Monday, 15 April 2013

Keds are only for short walks and the airplane

I read a recent article about how to write successful blogs.  One tip that stayed with me is that one must record both the good as well as the bad.  Readers want reality.  Truth.  No hiding and pretending I am a superhero mother runner who saves the world (though in my mind...).


I just got back from a 9 day holiday in Buenos Aires.  I accompanied my husband and his team (+ spouses/guests).  There was a lot of small talk as we all got to know one another.  Of course, I talked about running.  There were many runners in the group so it was an easy bonding topic.  At one dinner we discussed the difference between being 'driven' and being 'competitive'.  Being driven one wants to do one's best.  Being competitive means others must fail so that you succeed.  Interesting.

I ran once outside for about 5 km with a colleague of my husband's.  I was told not to run alone (the doorman said it would be fine but it depends "how fast can you run?").  By the way, not totally true.  I went out for coffee one morning, got slightly lost and was fine.  After spending all day in the plane and all the next day walking around, touring in my black Keds, my Achilles felt very tight.  I was glad after 30 min, my running partner and I had found our way back home.  It was an interesting run because instead of taking the time to look around, I was always watching 3 feet in front of me.  The sidewalks were so uneven and torn up.  I really was concerned that I may twist my ankle.

I ran again a few days later but on the treadmill in the gym.  I felt great, was listening to my music and feeling strong.  But once again, my achilles would not loosen up and I decided instead of running 45 min-60, I had better strop at 30.  I was happy that I ran 5 km in 27 min easily.  Great timing but I had to go back to my room and roll a cold water bottle from our bar fridge up and down my leg.

It is so disappointing when your body says stop but you're having fun, listening to music and you want to keep going.  I hate having to stop before I am tired.  It is the worst let down.  When that happens, I really have to talk myself into the accomplishment of the run so that I don't feel the frustration of the let down.

I kept touring the city in both my Keds as well as ballet flats.  This was a huge mistake.  By the end of our trip everything was hurting: shins, achilles, and especially arches!

So many people in Buenos Aires look fashionable.  There are shoe stores on every corner selling fancy flats, heels, wedges and boots but there I was walking around on the last day in my white New Balance Runners.  I felt much better.

I decided, on that last day, that I liked my sporty look and might even get a pair of runners in black to wear during the day but in Toronto.

Lesson learned--- Keds are cute and perfect for the airplane but not for touring a city where you are walking all day.








Tuesday, 2 April 2013

Britney Spears is in my head

Oops I did it again...  :)

Going out on my run today I told myself that if I ran 15 km and felt ok, I would register for the Toronto Women's Half Marathon scheduled for May.  Last year I was going to run it but pulled my hamstring just before signing up.

This morning I ran 5 km with Baci and it felt like a good warm up.  No aches or pains.  After dropping off the dog, I set myself up well with water and sport beans, hoping that I would continue far enough to use them.  I did run another 10 km easily!

I was playing tag with a streetcar for the last 5 km which gave a sign from above.  The message was clear and it gave me the confidence to make my decision.


When I got home, I registered for my 6th Half Marathon.

Feeling strong and as always excited for a race I have not done before.

Can't wait to bring this one home.  :)